" who are you? the missing link? "
i replied and waited for 5 minutes but the phone didn't sound at all so i went to shower.
loosen the tightened slight rusted tap and let the water rinse off the sticky sweat and gloom of the day,
humming the song of Kurt again and again but in my mind kept thinking who was the one who text me.
how i wish is her, Chian. i got her name from Kit and please forgive for my gutless.
well, she has a boy friend which i'm too far to compete with, what can i do more? i really give up this time, shameful and awful me. never mind, live on.
i walk down to the kitchen and open the dining table, seeing the family is a complete to have dinner together, conversation and laughter, enjoying the good meals from my mom and Annie. how lovely, what do i want more for now?
we're happy,
we're healthy,
we're fortunate, the real fortune.
has been struggling for years to get something but when i'm tired, my family is the one will never give me up all time.
i'm weak and i know all the time.
my friends are the bonuses of my life, they coloured up my vision, share stories with me, some made me really envy, some i felt unfortunate for them. what can i do more? even though there's a day i disappeared suddenly, the bond of friendship is still in the heart i guess, or i should believe.
the text message, how i wish it was Chian, so i can start making common conversation.
i dreamed of her, but should stop already.
how i hope Hydie was Chian, then things would go totally perfect.
but who's life that really smooth as love drama?
i should look in my hand now, i'm fortunate to have my family and friends now.
should let go the unreachable now, i admit and it is.
i went back to my room and look at my phone again,
start clearing the texts because the memory is limited.
in the box of 'draft' there's two messages,
i look into them,
first,
"hi, i'm vin. the one who brought you to the classroom on the first day of your school. hope you still can recall.. =)"
i typed this almost a week right after i got Chian's number from Kit. but i never dare to send this,
it was still hope, so i didn't send it out. but now... "Message deleted"
the second message,
"who are you? the missing link?"
just realized that my phone is out of credit, what a joke... is alright, is no longer important who is it already.
"all messages are deleted"
okay, is time to sleep already.
i went back to the same spot i guess..
"alarm alerted"
my vision slowly recovered and look at the grey alarm clock,
6.45am, it showed.
"SHIT!" yes, i'm late again...
leaving the house without shower and hair styled, wearing the dirty white school shoes with half buttoned shirt.
"Boy! your breakfast!"
my mom shouted from the gate with a packed sandwich in her hand waving at me,
"thanks Mom!"
i quickly run back and grabbed it, my mom still that awesome and caring.
"1.60ringgit boy,"
i bought my train ticket and rush to the platform,
but i heard the train is departing already.
i'll be late to school as usual, start sitting on empty bench and plug in the headset of my cassette player,
someone tapped on my shoulder,
i look up,
the usual hard breathing face, Elaine.
"wow, had a long run huh?"
"bastard, can't you give me a morning call?"
"is okay, we'll see the others later in the auditorium as usual.:
start smiling and share half of my sandwich with her..
and she shared her pack of fresh milk with me too.
yes, the usual me.
- end - Metamorphosis, Life of Vin - Year2004 -
p/s : i must end it as i promised myself. Story based on my year 2004 (65%), i didn't end it simply, i ended it with metamorphosis, what comes around, goes around. Thank you for reading it, my first story.